DAY #125

 AUGUST 11, 2023

UPDATE:

Went through my files & found then medical documents from the ER for the NON-Rape Exam/Kit that I DIDN'T have done!??  Is very similar to that receipt that I have from Silver Street Tavern for that beer they DIDN'T serve me!?! 

So apparently, I was not the only person that had a problem with Charlie Giguere, owner of Silver Street Tavern being a proud fiscal sponsor of this year's Sexual Assault Crisis & 'Support' Centers annual event for victim of sexual assault!?!  

As always, in full transparency...this was the response to me from Executive Director of the Sexual Assault Crisis Center & my response.  Every time I think this cannot get anymore corrupt...it does!    

Dear Donna, 

Sexual Assault Crisis & Support Center

Executive Director, Donna Strickler 

First you are so sorry…for what? It has been 125 DAYS since my rape…what are you sorry about for the very first time?  

Are you sorry that I was: Drugged? Raped? Sodomized? Robbed? Arrested? 

Sorry, that rather than taken to the ER, I was thrown in a jail cell, where I stayed unconscious & bleeding?  

Sorry, that I have been isolated & shunned?

Sorry, that I now have a lifetime Sexually Transmitted Disease? 

Sorry, I was served by the Sheriff for my “baseless accusations” WHILE in my own trauma therapy session?  

Sorry, that I have been threatened with violence (or should I say ‘further’ violence) against me?  

Sorry, that I have been brutally attacked by the media? 

Sorry, that I have been called a liar, unstable, delusional, addicted & belong in psychiatric hospital?   

Sorry, that I have been told I am a “threat to the fabric of society” & a “threat to democracy?”

Sorry, that I have been told I am a “disgrace to REAL victims of sexual assault?”

Or are you sorry that YOU & YOUR organization, Sexual Assault Crisis & ‘Support’ have remained silent throughout ALL of that?  

Or maybe you are sorry that, for the FIRST time in 12 years, you didn’t ask me to participate in the Sexual Assault Crisis Centers annual fundraiser?  Yet you did explain that to me…it was due to a “new procedure this year” that it was “your system” that uninvited me.

Or maybe you are just sorry that when YOU took money from Charlie Giguere & YOU added Silver Street Tavern as a proud sponsor to Sexual Assault Crisis & ‘Support’ Centers annual fundraiser, that this had repercussions on YOU.  Maybe that when for the FIRST time Charlie Giguere decided to ‘financially support sexual assault victims’ within his community at this event & YOU happily accepted his check, YOU cashed his check & YOU added his name proudly next to your mission of “supporting victims of sexual assault” that there was swift & loud backlash? 

Maybe you are sorry, that immediately upon this disgusting information being released, outraged community members began protesting & started purchasing seats to your annual party that usually raises 60K of your annual 109K salary?  Maybe you are sorry that 48 ‘uninvited’ guests purchased seats (6 tables for the price of $2280.00) in honor of ‘The Victims of the Waterville Rape Basements’?  You might want to hurry up & sell the rest of those tables before your entire party is filled with “delusional people, advocating for imaginary Waterville rape victims.”  

Yet I suspect that the reason you are sorry NOW, why YOU are sorry for the very first time in 125 DAYS has everything to do with ‘YOU & YOUR actions’ & has nothing to do with any compassion towards me.  So, I think I am going to pass on your, “I am so very sorry, I cannot imagine how this would make you feel.”   I do not think you could possibly even come close to imagining how I feel…I think you & I are very different women.  

To address the fact that YOU took Charlie Giguere’s money & NOW believe that YOU should return it & that this too was just a ‘systems glitch’ that unknowingly accepted his money, cashed his check, added his name to YOUR website & fundraising materials.  The same ‘systems glitch’ that uninvited me & invited Charlie’s money…yup, I agree with you; “there are some things YOU need to change.” 

You further state that my July 9th email to you helped you see that Charlie Giguere & Silver Street Tavern; “Does not fit into (our) Sexual Assault Crisis & ‘Support’ Center’s mission & under the circumstances his check will be returned’.  Really?  My email to you on July 9, 2023, is when this finally came to your attention?

Lastly, to address your offer of ‘support’ of the Sexual Assault Crisis & ‘Support’ Center’s resources; I think I am going to pass on that also.  I reached out to you at the ER, I reached out to you for assistance with therapy, I reached out to you for an explanation of YOUR silence…it has been 125 DAYS since I was raped & NOW you want to know how you can help me?  YOUR organization with your President of the board; Meaghan Maloney…the SAME DA that is currently prosecuting me for my ‘crimes’ on that Easter Sunday?!?  YOUR agency was silent throughout this entire thing, when 67 victims came forward. Sixty-fucking-seven victims posted on the Waterville community page that they had been raped & drugged in downtown Waterville, Maine…still silence from Sexual Assault Crisis & ‘Support’ Center?!?  YOUR own tag line is “Helping Our Communities Become Silent No More”!?!?!  

So, NOW that 48 seats have been purchased to your fundraiser as a protest to the work YOUR organization is NOT doing…NOW you want to support me?!?  I am all set; I no longer see you as a support system nor ally.  I do not want your money…or should I say Charlie’s money.

…& do not think I missed the passive aggressive, gaslighting remark of “since you didn’t actually have a rape kit done.”

Let me say scream this one more time, since you are ‘just realizing’ so many things this week:  

• I dragged myself into the ER & told them I had been drugged & raped.

• Law enforcement immediately took me to an exam room.

• A sexual assault nurse met with me & called for a sexual assault advocate.

• Once the sexual assault advocate arrived the doctor examined me, I laid on an exam table & with 3 strangers in the room, the doctor examined my vagina & my rectum.

• The doctor stated that the bleeding from my rectum was due to tears in the membrane wall.

• I was told that due to the nature of rape drugs that they would already be gone from my system. 

• Medical professionals drew 6 vials of blood; 6 vials that are now gone due to Waterville PD not securing them for their ‘investigation’. 

• I signed ALL legal releases; even a request for services from Sexual Assault Crisis & ‘Support’. 

• Doctor prescribed me numerous medications to protect me against STDS & HIV, to no avail.

• Doctor tested me for HIV & told me I would need to be tested again at 3 months & 6 months.  

• I gave a detailed forensic affidavit of everything remembered & that I had been piecing together. 

• I was at this NON-rape kit medial appointment from 2:45 to 8:40 pm.  SIX hours, I was there sobbing, examined, sobbing, medicated, sobbing, interviewed...it all felt VERY ‘rapey’ to me!?!

So, you can passive-aggressively call it whatever you want; rape exam, rape kit…I get it, I hear you & understand your message loud & clear.  Even your silence has been deafeningly loud.  Let me share with you something that you already know; the doctor made that call as to whether to cut my nails for DNA, & as whether to probe me for sperm & ejaculation…you know why?  Because that needed to be done on Easter Sunday; the window for that evidence was when I was found in that ditch on that sunny Easter Sunday afternoon!  You know…when the deputies found a 55-year-old woman, drugged out, driving in a ditch, with no criminal background, veteran plates, unable to cognitively answer simple questions like “WHERE DO YOU LIVE?” all the while as I told officers that “I CANNOT SEE!” The time for that evidence to be collected was THEN, when they should have taken me to the ER for medical attention…not thrown me in a jail cell.  You know that time when I didn’t even know my own address!  When I was being arrested & Somerset County Sheriff has now publicly stated that “IF” I had told them at THAT time that I had been drugged & raped “THEN’ they would have “taken my situation very seriously.” THEN they would have taken my situation seriously!?!?  Yet this seems ridiculous for me to have to explain that to YOU; a professional that has worked in the sexual assault field for her entire career…YOU know this stuff, right!?! 

So, nope on your “so very sorry” & you can keep your semantics about what my ER experience was called. Also, all set on your fiscal offer & a BIG no thank you for your 125 DAYS too late offer of ‘support’…I have been traumatized enough.  YOU have to live with the fact that YOU & YOUR organization have been part of my trauma; YOU have to live with that knowledge & the responsibility of YOUR ‘inactions’.  Everyone seems so keen on forcing the responsibility of being drugged & raped onto me & I am full up on responsibility right now & think it is time I handed some of this shit back to the rightful owners.  

I also think you should seriously reconsider your current role as Executive Director of a Sexual Assault Agency.  An organization, which has one job; to support & advocate for victims of sexual assault…because you are un-fucking-believably incompetent at your yearly 109K salaried role.  I think Charlie may be looking for staff; I heard his kitchen staff got sent back to prison…can you cook?  Also, I advise you to stay away from any of their beverages…I do not recommend their $25,124.68 beer.